“The Vanishing Half” by Brit Bennett

Another book that I think ended up on my reading list because I heard about it years ago and was intrigued, but I can’t totally remember. It was a really good read, the characters sucked me in and pulled me along their journey. I couldn’t wait to find out what happened next.

The story spans several decades but it starts in the sixties with one of a pair of twins that ran away from Mallard returning. The one returning is Desiree, and she brings a dark child with her. Mallard is odd in that it’s all Black people living there, but they have tried to make themselves as light as possible. It tells how Desiree ran away with her twin Stella, but then Stella ran off on her own (pretending to be white). Desiree married a darker man, had a kid, and had to run off with the child once that relationship became abusive. So she raises her child, Jude, in Mallard. Jump forward to Jude now heading to UCLA for college. She meets and falls in love with Reese, a trans man who also ran away from home. To save up money for his top surgery Jude starts working fancy parties, and at one of the parties gets a glimpse of Stella.

Fast forward a little more, Stella’s daughter Kennedy that Jude met at the party is starring in a show with one of their drag queen friends. Jude starts getting close to Kennedy, trying to learn about Stella. One night Stella comes to the show but doesn’t believe Jude when she says she’s Desiree’s daughter. Fast forward and jump to New York, Kennedy is trying to make it as an actress. Jude and Reese show up there as they had to move to get Reese’s surgery. Jude gives Kennedy a picture of their mothers as kids and they strike up a more friendly relationship. Stella learns about Jude, and finally visits Mallard as her mother suffers from Alzheimer’s. Kennedy eventually comes home and Stella comes clean to her daughter. Final jump, Jude is in medical school and learns her grandmother has died. She and Reese head back to Mallard for the funeral.

The book is largely about the different people we are and could be, and what happens when we cut off our past to be those people. Stella pretends to be white and has a whole new family. Reese runs off to be a man. Kennedy keeps trying to leave, unsuccessfully. Jude even has to go to LA to be herself. The foils of Stella and Reese, while not always directly compared, are interesting because it shows that this cutting off isn’t always a bad thing. Reese’s parents were abusive and he never heads back, although he still understands the importance of family and wants to be one with Jude. I thought it was a really interesting look at identity and race, and the lengths we are willing to go there.

I also just really loved Reese and all of their queer friends in LA. I wish there was more of that in the second half of the book. But it was so cool to see someone go through gender affirming care in the seventies and see that found family that they all have. Plus trans male representation is still so rare, it feels like something to treasure whenever it pops up.

The characters and the plot were all so compelling in this book, I really loved going through it. It’s Bennett’s second novel, I’ll have to try and find her first as well.

This Is Beautiful: Paralympics!

 Thank goodness that there's more Olympics to be had! The Paralympics started on the 6th and we are back to watching so much of it! I hadn't watched much of the Paralympics previously so this is a lot of fun for me. I love seeing the creative ways folks can do sports. I also haven't watched much wheelchair curling and sled hockey so I'm enjoying this a lot. I hope I'm able to pay this much attention every time the Olympics/Paralympics come around.

“Beneath the Sugar Sky” by Seanan McGuire

This is the third book of the Wayward Children series I’ve been enjoying (with the first and second books also covered) and I liked it so much more than the second installment. This returns to the cast of the first book, with a new protagonist, but it revisits the location and characters I loved in the original installment that got me hooked.

The book’s main character is Cora who is from an underwater world where she was a mermaid. She loves swimming and is athletic, but it’s implied that she takes her own life in response to bullying about her weight and that’s how she gets to her world. She’s a new arrival at Eleanor West’s house, and her friend is her roommate Nadya who also came from a water world. They are hanging out in the pond when Rini plunges through the water looking for her mom, Sumi. Sumi died in the first book, so they go to get Christopher and Kade to sort this out. All of them first go to find Sumi’s body, then to the Land of the Dead to see Nancy (main character of the first book) to get her spirit, and then finally to Confection to get her Nonsense. Nadya elects to stay in the Land of the Dead in exchange for her spirit, but in the end they successfully return with Sumi after the Baker of Confection bakes her back together.

One of the highlights of the series is the diversity. Having the main character being called fat despite her athleticism, and especially go to a land of sugar and deal with all those feelings, is really cool to read about. You don’t often encounter that perspective in a fantasy novel. Plus the Baker is a girl with a hijab from Brooklyn, and that was interesting as she was originally called a god by some of the characters. She had to clarify that she isn’t particularly religious.

I have to wonder how the series will eventually deal with the potential relationships that spring up between the characters. Kade clearly still likes Nancy, even with her in the Land of the Dead and him stuck at Eleanor’s. Christopher and Cora also appear to be developing a relationship, or at least a crush, which is unfortunate as Christopher keeps proclaiming that he loves the Skeleton Girl. Seems like an unfortunate love triangle to be stuck in.

The logic of these worlds was also developed further here, but I’m still confused about it all. That doesn’t really detract though, half of the characters are confused as well so it does truly feel like a bonus if you’re able to reread and gleam a little more of the organization from the text. For now though, I get enough to get by and I’m pleased with that.

This series is so much fun, I’m really glad to keep going with it. I hope that the rest are similar to this one instead of departing from the setting that got me hooked in the first place.

This Is Beautiful: Soup Night!

 I'm making my friends celebrate my defense and graduation for months, and we did a soup party over the weekend! I do really enjoy cooking and I wanted to cook for folks, plus soup just seemed easier. Plus I've seen a number of soup themed events recently and it just looked like fun. So I made some vegetarian and meat soup and got some bread and cheese and had friends bring things or not. I had a lot of fun! I think sharing food is like the best way to hang out and also be socialist together. Soup night is a success!

“This is How You Lose the Time War” by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone

So many different people recommended this book to me that I think it was a victim of its own success. The book is fine, certainly, but after all that hype I definitely expected… a little more.

The book is pretty straightforward, opposing factions of Garden and the Agency (nature versus technology) start up a correspondence. The two send each other letters back and forth through various creative mediums across time and space. Eventually they fall in love, Red (of the Agency) is told to poison Blue (of the Garden). Red warns Blue, but she is poisoned anyways. Red goes back in time and infiltrates Garden to get her an antidote, and the book ends with Blue getting Red out of jail.

There’s a lot to like here, the take on time travel is refreshing in its simplicity and lack of drawn out explanations. Nature vs tech is basically a trope so you really don’t need a ton of explanations to get the dynamic. There is no ethics of what they’re doing either, the entire focus is on the relationship between these women as they develop a fondness for each other separate of their factions.

But that’s also my biggest issue: I don’t feel like I get to know either of them very well. The only characters we meet are basically husks you can project whatever you’d like onto. They don’t have distinctive personalities, and you’d be forgiven for mixing them up.

After all that I just expected… more. A deeper connection. More of character development rather than a single relationship. It is good and it’s at least a quick read, but I do feel I just wanted to speed through it after a certain point.

This Is Beautiful: American Sign Museum

Last weekend we went to Cincinnati to see a concert (also celebrate defending, but that was scheduled after). I hadn't been before, and it was a lot of fun! Best part for me though was the American Sign Museum, it's a museum of just that, signs throughout history. It goes from hand painted to plastic to neon! There's even some candlelight ones we found tucked in a corner. It was honestly a perfect amount of kitsch, and small enough we went through in less than an hour. They also have demonstrations with neon which we couldn't stay for, but sounded really cool as a way to preserve the art form. Definitely would highly recommend, I love niche museums and this was a good one!

“How to Hold a Grudge: From Resentment to Contentment – the Power of Grudges to Transform Your Life” by Sophie Hannah

This is another book where I am not sure how it ended up on my reading list. But it was very different from what I thought it’d be going in!

First of all, this book is fun! It’s a delightful read! Hannah is not shy about her own grudges as she goes through them, and she is very understanding about wherever you are in your journey with grudges. She talks about her decision to write the book and how she used to be a people pleaser and that informed her decisions here and obsession with grudges. Even if you aren’t 100% in, it’s amusing to read and such a fun ride.

It also is laid out very clearly. There’s chapters dedicated to how to evaluate your grudges, and how to even just think about grudges. It ends with how to be a good grudge holder and try to minimize yourself as a grudgee. You have to be responsible about having grudges and recognize that you are the subject of other grudges too.

What is really nice too is that Hannah isn’t a therapist, but there are two experts that weigh in occasionally about her thoughts. So you do get how an expert thinks about things. Of course these are all positive comments, but I found it reassuring that experts were indeed consulted in the process of this book.

I think my really only complaint is that this process seems so… involved. And this process is laid out, but you also have to navigate Hannah’s grudge stories and interjections to really lay out “ok this is what I have to do.” And the fact that all that is super daunting is really what stops me from going all in on this methodology right now. Don’t get me wrong, I will absolutely be using elements of this book that work for me and implementing advice for new grudges, but I don’t think I’ll be as organized about it as the author is. Which is fine, but I kinda wish the activation energy was smaller.

Hannah has turned this into a podcast! It looks like it ran from 2018-2024, I’m excited to check those episodes out as well to keep thinking about all of this.