Sunday, December 29, 2024

2024 Year in Review

 I don't usually do this, but let's take a look at 2024! I read a whole lot, from a skim of the blog I wrapped up the Diane Duane saga and started a new series (Temeraire by Naomi Novik). Also read more about a-spec identities and Palestine to try and have an informed take about a single thing. It's great that I managed to find a new fantasy series that I'm really enjoying, and that I managed to reread things. I still don't love how I react to world events, but I think that's more to do with the fact that I don't know everything and I have to just keep reading and learning things. And that's alright.

My favorite book of the year (if it isn't His Majesty's Dragon and starting the Temeraire series anyways) is one that I haven't even published the post on so I'll save it, but it's a memoir about art that struck a chord with me.

I also posted a whole lot about how much I dislike being a PhD student and enjoy breaks from work. (Lol?) I'm still a ways from the end unfortunately... But it's been a good year for me and work. I got my paper on the ethics of same-sex sexual behavior out FINALLY. And I sent in my submission for "Dance Your PhD." Both have been a while coming, and both mean a whole lot to me for different reasons. I am very glad though that I can continue to be creative while in my program as I would keel over otherwise.

In the next year, I'm hoping to cease participating in things that drain my energy. I can tell I'm getting a little curmudgeonly in my ancient PhD days and I want to do things less. But I still am doing new things somehow, I restarted pointe work this year and tried out aerial circus lessons for the first time on a regular basis. But there are definitely things I need to cut out of my life. I also was the instructor of record for a class for the first time, affirming that I love teaching, and went to a teaching research conference which gave me a new vision of the future. Both great things for my future!

Anyways, it has been a good year. Hard year but a good year. Things are looking good for 2025, although I am getting nervous about graduating, but we shall see.

Saturday, December 21, 2024

Turning 30

 I turned 30 years old yesterday! And I also got married on the same day! (I didn't plan it that way, it's just how schedules worked out.) Which leaves me in this interesting position here, as I have now been running this silly little blog for well over a decade, enough that I went back and reread the post I wrote as a 20 year old. Funnily enough, it isn't as cringey as I thought it would be. There is some good stuff in here, things that I still forget most of the time haha. 

On my thirtieth I don't want to do another little listicle just because those are so lame and such simplifications. And I'm just in a more pensive mood. 30 years feels like such a milestone and also I am still in a PhD program, it's wrapping up, but I'm essentially still in school and training for an adult job that I hopefully eventually get. I don't feel that I have read and absorbed everything I want to learn about and advocate for, and I hope that I keep feeling that way. But I certainly don't think I have wisdom to impart.

The past year particularly I feel like I have had to contend with the limitations of my body more than ever. I'm less physically able to do a lot of things I could in the past, and I've been trying to train more to make up for it, but it feels like I'm hyper aware of how I look and my body type. And I super don't love that. Since my 20th birthday I've also had a cancer diagnosis and had to go through that treatment, and there's been a worldwide pandemic. I didn't react to the pandemic particularly well and I still kinda hate myself for that. I haven't always been a great anti-racist advocate and I also hate myself over that. But we keep moving forward and trying to do better.

I am really hopeful for the coming decade though. I will finally get my doctorate and I will hopefully move somewhere that has more stuff in the area for me. I so want to get into ballet more and keep dancing. I want to keep creating. I made so much great art in my 20s and I don't want to peak here; but it is so hard to create as an adult. Especially out of school and trying to find community groups. It's so hard and I'm not looking forward to that but I know that I can't stop choreographing and acting and making! I don't want to give that up and I'm determined to seek out spaces I can do these things.

Oh and I'm married now. I'm finally in a healthy, stable relationship that feels good. And feels like we are on the same page when it comes to asexuality and aromanticism and what we want. It just feels like a comfy friendship where we will plan together and create a life together, and that is the ideal. Getting married itself was more symbolic than anything else, nothing is actually going to change, but hey it is nice we did that.

So yeah, thirties here we come. Here's to leaving my twenties behind.

Wednesday, December 18, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Tchaikovsky and Ellington

 I went to the Detroit Symphony Orchestra last weekend to see a really cool performance of the Nutcracker music! They played first the lush orchestral original version that Tchaikovsky composed, and then immediately played the Ellington jazzy version. It was so cool! I already know both versions extremely well being a dancer and a musician but having it back to back really highlighted what Ellington borrowed from Tchaikovsky and how he tweaked it. Honestly, I only want to listen to these pieces this way now!

It also was so nice to hear the music played live. The past few times I've seen the Nutcracker it has been with recorded music instead of a live orchestra. And it really loses something. Never mind that I love live performances because they have raw mistakes (the DSO is too good for that) it's just a different resonance in the space and maybe you're hearing one part a little more clearly. And it's just so cool to see it in person.

Saturday, December 14, 2024

“The Thief” by Megan Whalen Turner

My partner really likes reading middle grade fiction out loud to me, so we started this new series. It had a book come out recently so I am looking forward to going through a series that has recent installments and isn’t just from our childhoods!

This book follows Gen, a thief who was recently imprisoned for bragging about being able to steal anything from the King. Turns out that the King needs a thief though, so he sends his magus (like a high level advisor) out with Gen to steal a relic that is supposed to have magical powers and grant leadership over a nearby country to him. So Gen heads out with the magus, a soldier Pol, and the magus’s two apprentices Sophos and A. They cross over into another country and Gen has to infiltrate an underwater cavern to find the relic. He makes it through and finds the gods guarding the relic. The god of thieves gives his approval, and Gen makes it back out. Unfortunately the part is beset by soldiers on the way back, Pol and A both die while Gen is severely wounded. Gen, the magus, and Sophos are all captured. Gen breaks them out and they end up captured by another nation. Gen then reveals that he’s the Queen’s Thief for this country, and he stole the relic for her. And that he was originally a trained soldier and is very smart, and all that stuff.

Now the world building in this book is extremely good, which makes the reveal at the end all the better. As they travel, you get snippets of the current geopolitical situation, which I got most of but not everything to be fair (or maybe I would have predicted the twist haha). What I liked even better was that while they travel Gen starts to tell stories of the gods and you learn about the god of thieves and his exploits as you go. The gods are similar to the Greek ones of this universe, but not exactly which makes it fun.

Gen is also a fun narrator. He’s a little sassy and sarcastic, but only reveals the what he wants the magus to know. So the ending stays a surprise while being plausible. It is a great case of how you can use an unreliable narrator without either making the ending obvious or leaving the reader feeling unsure what is going on. I know from my partner that there are different narrators for the others books in the series, which is too bad because this story does endear you to Gen quite a lot.

Anyways I am excited to get to the rest of this! Will be interesting to see how the series develops.

Wednesday, December 4, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Thanksgiving

 I wanted to reflect on the holiday a little, but not make a super formal post about it. So here's everything beautiful about Thanksgiving! First of all, I really like the food. I don't love turkey, and I'm a huge supporter of mixing it up a little and doing like other cultures' foods as a celebration, but honestly I freaking love stuffing and potatoes. I also love having a short work week and getting the rest of it off to just relax and recover from a food coma. It's so nice.

This was also the first year I spent it with my partner's family. It's so funny to me that other people aren't as big of Thanksgiving families as mine is. We go all day with the food and the preparation and everything, so when others just sit down and have a dinner it feels... small. But I feel like I needed that this year, less prep work, much less drama, and just a more relaxed time. It also was nice to spent a holiday with my partner's family, he's been doing Christmas with mine so it only feels fair.

So hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving and started fights with conservative family members. Only feels fair.

Saturday, November 30, 2024

“The Candy House” by Jennifer Egan

I bought this book recently at a bookstore, it has been a while since I read anything by Egan but I really like her works. This book was no different, I really liked the format and how she takes an idea and describes it from several different angles through her different characters.

Largely, the book deals with the outcomes of introducing a sort of social media company where you can upload your unconsciousness and view other peoples as well. So it starts with the inventor of this technology and discusses his family, then moves to the woman who came up with the algorithm behind the social media whose work he basically stole. From there it takes a bit of a turn and focuses on an adjacent individual who becomes a spy for the US and uses technology from this to record her every move, and afterwards has a hard time readjusting to civilian life and thinks the government is monitoring her every move. From there it goes back to the original family and ends on a vignette of them before this technology was ever invented.

Now the book came out in 2022, and I sort of liked that there were a few references to a pandemic around 2020 but nothing concrete was said about COVID. It feels pretty true to what these times are like where a lot of people ignore that the pandemic really ever happened. The whole thing feels pretty prescient by focusing on the social media and the effects/benefits of this time of technology where you have access to anyone’s memories at any given time.

I liked the chapters about Lulu the best as those are the ones that change format. First there’s the narration from a childhood friend of Lulu’s that’s in horrible grammar, you know like a 9 year old would write. Then her chapter is all in second person thought fragment as she records her thoughts as a spy. Then the next chapter is all in emails as she tries to get in contact with her birth father. The change in narration really makes those all stand out and highlight the dehumanizing experiences she goes through as well as the recovery period. The emails also allow the chapter to include more characters’ thoughts, bringing more of them together before ending the book.

I really enjoyed this read, it felt like it was able to speak to what is happening now with the internet and social media more than most things I have read. It is in the same universe as A Visit from the Goon Squad but I read that about a decade ago and couldn’t remember what characters were pulled from that work and which were not. I’ll have to revisit it at some point!

Wednesday, November 27, 2024

This is Beautiful: John Proctor is the Villain

 This past weekend, my partner and I saw a play on campus called "John Proctor is the Villain." It's going up on Broadway next spring as well! The show was really good, it's about a high school English class in rural Georgia that's reading "The Crucible" and also dealing with the rise of the #MeToo movement with some students starting a feminism club. 

One of the students just broke up with her long-term boyfriend of seven years because he slept with her best friend Shelby, who no one has seen in the six months since then. Shelby reappears though, and then accuses their English teacher of having a relationship with her and having sex with her. So there's a clear comparison between the play where John Proctor is being accused, and this English teacher. In the conversations about the book, the female characters talk about how Proctor is kind of a dick and never apologizes for what he does to the women around him.

Anyways, this was such a good and fun play. The playwright captures the way that high school girls talk to each other and their classmates really well, and I loved the parallels between the play and their high school. There are plenty of really silly moments as well, I loved their classmate Mason who is a high school himbo but learns about feminism over the course of the play. It's a really fun time, I hope many people are able to appreciate it when it goes up in NYC!

Sunday, November 24, 2024

“Empire of Ivory” by Naomi Novik

This is the fourth book in the Temeraire series (check out the first, second, and third books) and while I was hesitant going in it has ended up being one of the best installments of the series so far. We get to interact with the original British team from the first book while also expanding the world and in particular advancing Temeraire’s fascination with liberty and freedom for dragons from the previous two installments.

The book opens with Temeraire and Laurence making it back to England and asking about the other dragons. Turns out that all of the dragons are sick with a sort of flu that they haven’t been able to cure and is highly contagious, completely incapacitating all dragons in England. It started with a dragon from the Americas and at first they thought it was just a cold (this got Temeraire sick as well when Volly visited him two books ago) but quickly realized it was more serious. Dragons have begun dying and with Napoleon advancing the situation is becoming dire. Temeraire accidentally ends up in the quarantine area taking down a French spy dragon, but to everyone’s amazement doesn’t get sick. They suspect that when he got a cold last year they fed him a cure from Africa, and so the whole of Temeraire’s flying formation heads to Africa to try and find a cure.

Once there, they try everything they can think of, and make Temeraire sick in a number of ways. The dragons that are already sick continue to suffer though. It’s only once they get their hands on a rare mushroom that they realize they found it! Maximus was on the brink of death and starts to breathe more clearly. They head off to try and find more of it, but the jungle is littered with feral dragons, plus there are the natives that they cannot communicate with. There is a freeman/former slave turned missionary plus his wife that Laurence took with him (there’s a sidenote about how England makes Laurence the face of the abolition movement) that they take along to translate. In the jungle they find a whole cave full of the mushrooms and send the dragons back laden with the stuff to make a ship headed to England. While the dragons are away, a few natives appear. The missionary heads out to talk to them, but he says something wrong and gets a spear thrown at him leading to conflict and the humans are all captured.

They are brought to a cave and are made prisoners. Temeraire, Lily, and Nitidius (three dragons) manage to break them out and they find that the ports are all out war between the natives and the colonizers. The natives drive everyone out, and the missionary’s wife decides to stay as the tribe that captured her ends up being the one she was captured from. They head back to England and the dragons are well on their way to recovery, but they encounter huge mounds of dragon graves as well. There, Laurence learns that they released the French spy dragon in the hopes of infecting all of the dragons on the mainland. Both Laurence and Temeraire are appalled at that, and they steal some mushrooms to bring to the French. The book ends with Laurence heading back to England to face his punishment for committing treason.

Alright so many things happen in this book, and a lot of it has to do with Africa at the time of the Napoleonic wars. Slavery has been previously been mentioned, with it being clear that Laurence is against the practice, although he doesn’t do much. In this book he takes a stronger stance, propelled along by Temeraire who has learned enough to see the whole thing as awful. The book deals with this rather well, Laurence does not get away from the native tribe by insisting that he is not part of the practice of slavery as his whole country clearly is.

The one issue that I did have with the portrayal of the Africans is that they immediately kill the missionary. It is revealed that the missionary is from a tribe that they are currently at war with, but it felt very cruel to have him slain instantly when he clearly was not with the rest of his tribe, and had not for years.

It was also quite interesting seeing a new perspective on dragons. To the Africans, dragons are their ancestors reborn. The characters witness a sort of ceremony/celebration where they are talking to an egg as an old friend, and see the dragons treated with reverence and as leaders in the tribe.

I was skeptical of the disease at first as Temeraire clearly was sick earlier, so I assumed Novik was going back and changing the disease after coming up with a better idea for it. The addition of the cure was quite creative, and allowed us to actually revisit these characters that I loved so much from the first book finally. I was thrilled that we got to see Maximus and Lily again as well as their captains.

I am excited for the next book and how they deal with Laurence’s treason, personally I am hoping for us to spend a little time in England without expanding the world too much. But we shall see!

Wednesday, November 20, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Working From Home

 Stayed home all last week because I didn't have a reason to go in and also I didn't want to haha. It's nice to give myself a bit of a break and just focus on what I need to do from the comfort of my own home. I don't remember the last time I just sat down in the middle of the day and read for instance. It was a nice break and I'm almost (not completely) glad to be going back into work this week. 

Friday, November 15, 2024

“Usual Cruelty: The Complicity of Lawyers in the Criminal Justice System” by Alec Karakatsanis

This was a book that I happened to get for free from my student union. I mostly picked it up because, hey free book. I’ll almost never turn that down.

The book consists of three different essays, all looking at criminal justice and constitutional rights. They vary wildly in length and format, but there are several themes that they have in common. One is that a disregard for human rights is the norm in criminal justice, especially if you are poor or a person of color. And another is that lawyers get used to the harm that they perpetuate with their job.

This was an interesting look at how criminal justice working in the United States. Karakatsanis clearly knows what he is talking about, as every fact and figure (and there are a lot of them) is cited and quantified. The figures themselves are so stark that it really opens your eyes and makes you question just what is going on here. How does the US hold a quarter of the world’s incarcerated people? How on earth did that happen?

Unsurprisingly it is a very relevant read at times. There is a whole section dedicated to so called “progressive prosecutors” such as Kamala Harris (who just lost her bid for president). The book was published ten years ago, its amazing that these same names keep popping up. Just goes to show that not much has changed.

I would highly recommend this, especially to others that are not familiar with the criminal justice system broadly. It really makes it clear just how far we have to go in this country and fires you up to make that change and get us there.

Wednesday, November 13, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Teaching

 Gave two lectures this week, the first one focused on Jacques Monod and how he was a scientist that played a big part in the French Resistance, and another talked about the complicity of scientists in things like eugenics. I am going to keep this up, and I'm interested to see what impact this has on the students, but I am not sure yet. There is a fine line I'm trying to walk here, and while I am not personally worried about my job security right now, I would love to not get fired from a part time lecturing gig lol. Regardless, this is keeping me going because I feel like I am actually making a difference here, this is the class that I wanted when I was in school back in 2016.

Sunday, November 10, 2024

Gestures Vaguely At Current Situation

 Not sure what I can write at this exact moment, but it feels wrong to not try when that's why this blog exists. Partially I am hesitant because I do not think that I have all of the answers here, and I do not think that anyone does right now. We will just need to give some of this time to figure out exactly what to do, how we got here, and where to go now.

Which isn't to say that there are no answers whatsoever. The Democrats absolutely let their base down by swinging to the right. Standing with Israel means that Kamala had absolutely no chance of getting Michigan at all. I am more convinced than ever that there will never be a female president within my lifetime, let alone a Black, South Asian woman. I am still amazed that people were surprised by this when I could have guessed this the day she announced she was running. Hate comes in both blue and red.

There are some good things. Many states codified abortion, and the first trans Congresswoman was elected. It feels really minimal though when we are absolutely about to lose rights and progress. Personally I'm already exhausted and depressed. I was already doing the work, and I will keep doing it, but I'm so annoyed at having more stuff put on my plate. And I know my energy will come back, but it feels like so much whenever I think of the next four years and what we will have to endure. Because people absolutely will not survive this. That is a fact. And that depresses me in advance.

There are a number of things I'm really hopeful about. This time around I'm a teacher and I will be giving my students the tools to get through this. I've been thinking a lot about the art that got me through the first Trump presidency, and how we can possibly make more of it in these times. There is still good in this world, and it is absolutely worth fighting for.

Wednesday, November 6, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Traveling

 I'm trying to stay positive about this, I'm at a conference this week. Of course I'm also losing it over the election, but I'm trying to enjoy the change of scenery and all that. It's nice to explore somewhere new, I'll probably write about it soon, and just take an excuse to have a bit of a break!

Saturday, November 2, 2024

“Circe” by Madeline Miller

I had been meaning to pick this book up at some point, finally got around to it when I picked it up on a whim from my library. It was a really cool and interesting read, despite my fascination with Percy Jackson I am not the biggest buff of Greek mythology anymore and this was riveting.

Circe follows the story of the titular witch throughout her life, starting with her being born as a nymph to the sun Tital Helios. She is overlooked by her family and actively bullied, until she discovers these plants that have magical powers to transform individuals. She first uses it to transform a man she likes into a god, and then when he favors a different nymph, she transforms her rival into the monster Scylla. After that she turns herself in and is banished to an island. While there, she comes into her own as a witch and bends the island to her will.

The first time she leaves the island she is bidden to help her sister give birth. Daedalus comes to fetch her and they return together. There her sister gives birth to the Minotaur and Circe is able to meet the characters from the myth. She advises Daedalus on how to constrain the monster, and he gifts her a loom.

Then men start coming to her island. She welcomes the first group, but when they learn she’s alone the captain rapes her and she turns them all into pigs. She does this to all crews that come by, until she meets Odysseus. He convinces her to return his crew and they stay on the island for a while. Eventually though, he has to leave, and Circe bears a son as soon as he goes. Eventually, her son wants to leave and meet his father so she sends him off with a poisonous spear for protection. When he returns though, tragedy has struck and Odysseus poisoned himself when trying to grab the spear. He returns with Odysseus’ wife and original son, who stay and get to know Circe. Athena then returns to the island and offers Odysseus’ first son the chance to become a king, he refuses. Circe’s son takes his place. Circe then convinces her father to end her exile and she travels around with Odysseus’ son trying to right her wrongs. The book ends with her taking those original flowers and becoming mortal.

Now the book is a really cool read, it combines a bunch of myths together that Circe witnesses or plays a role in. Because in the original stories, she is only in the Odyssey and even then most of her motives and personality is shadowed. We don’t know why she turns men into pigs, or why she eventually helps Odysseus get home. There are many more beyond the ones I mentioned here, Media and Jason make an appearance, among others. The result is an incredible weaving together of stories, linked by Circe’s life and perspective.

Circe is a very sympathetic character here, we see her bullied throughout her life and we hear her scorn the Titans and the gods alike. When she comes into her power and starts turning men into pigs, you end up cheering her on. Having said that, she is always sympathetic to mortals and is one of the few immortals to actually morn them, so we are predisposed to like her.

My only gripe is with the ending. I do love that it comes full circle and she uses her first source of magic to become mortal, that’s all very nice. But it also says that she then marries Odysseus’ first son and they have kids together and just. Ewww? Like she gave birth to his brother, I know that these myths play fast and loose with all that but the book also very much uses modern morals throughout it. And that is just a little too much for me.

It was a fun read, makes me want to read The Song of Achilles by Miller as well. Hopefully I get around to it eventually!

Wednesday, October 30, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Post-Move

 So my lab recently moved to a new space. It's been pretty annoying, I first cancelled all experiments in order to put shit into boxes, and then cancelled this week in order to unpack and also find things again. But it's finally starting to clear up and feel nice. The space is a lot bigger, has more windows, and I think will be pretty nice to work in. Best of all is that it has parking! I've been dreading work for a while because I didn't want to deal with the move, but after today I think it'll actually be nice for things to go back to normal.

Friday, October 25, 2024

“When Breath Becomes Air” by Paul Kalanithi

I picked up this book in between readings, mostly because it was available immediately on Libby. It sort of sucks, it is a cool book, but it just made me realize that I have to stop reading these medical books. Just completely, they are not my thing. And therefore this post will be a little biased.

The book follows the author, Paul, through his life including medical school and residency. He gets diagnosed with lung cancer in the middle of his training to become a neurosurgeon, and he talks about his treatments and conversations that he has with his wife, how their marriage was struggling and their decision to have a kid. It drops off eventually when he has to go back for third-line treatment, and from their his wife picks it up in the epilogue. Paul ended up not recovering with that and dying shortly after graduation, he got to see maybe the first year of his daughter’s life and was unable to finish the manuscript before succumbing.

There’s a lot of cool things about this book. First is that Paul has degrees in English literature so he clearly knows what he is doing with his writing. It really makes it a joy to read. And second, or similarly, he talks a lot about how he wanted to understand the human experience and particularly what it means to die. He starts by talking about death in literature, and from there goes to the doctor’s view of it, and finally death as a patient. He struggles with his diagnosis and the fact that he doesn’t want to die, even though he knows that he must. The book therefore holds a very interesting perspective for anyone who has thought about death and what it means to face it on a practical level.

I’m so done with these books though. A lot of the book talks about how horrible it is to be in residency and to be a neurosurgeon. Paul repeatedly says that it is a calling because if it was a job then it’d be the worst job in the world. But there is absolutely no momentum to change that. Whatsoever. And that frustrates me so much about medical training and medical school. People look down on those that pick “lifestyle specialties” where you get to have humane hours and a work-life balance instead of burning out. Paul shares a classmate of his even commits suicide after losing a patient. Why on earth aren’t we changing things instead of leaving everyone to get burnt out? It’s part of the reason why I didn’t pursue medical school in the end, there is a deep attachment to tradition just because and breaking you down just because. I couldn’t do it and take it seriously. I’m not sure I take most doctors seriously as a result.

Anyways so I have to stop reading them. I know too much and this veneer about how doctors are such good, brave people feels false and rings hollow to me. Even someone like Paul who I’m sure was a good person seems fake when taking into context the fact that doctors just don’t have the time and capacity to get sleep and care for people. It’s ridiculous. But also if you aren’t jaded like me, it is an interesting read. I just hate the taste that these memoirs leave in my mouth now.

Wednesday, October 23, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Halloween Costumes

 This year the whole family is going as bedsheet ghosts for Halloween, so I cut eye holes for the humans, cats, and dog. It's going to be tough to get them to all sit still for a picture, but it'll be so silly and fun! This is really the only part of Halloween I do anymore, but the taking of pictures and dressing up silly is still fun.

Saturday, October 19, 2024

“How To Piss Off Men” by Kyle Prue

Now I have been a fan of Prue’s work for a while, my partner found him on TikTok with his series of the same name there, and we were thrilled when he came out with a physical book. Even better was when I saw he was coming to our town on a book tour, so of course we got tickets immediately.

The book is short, I read it while waiting for the book tour event to start haha. But he manages to get in stories about his grandfather and masculinity and how the different quips came to his attention. It manages to be an interesting view on men and how they are while still being a silly little book.

I would highly recommend it, of nothing else it spruces up your coffee table. But don’t get me wrong, I intend to study its contents very closely.

Wednesday, October 16, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Over the Garden Wall

 This past weekend my friend had an "Over the Garden Wall" watch party to rewatch the classic fall cartoon. It was so fun! My partner had never seen it, and I only just watched it over the pandemic for the first time.

It's really nice watching things specifically with other people, you get to react with them and turn it into a collective experience. And the cartoon is so fun and cute, it captures the fall weather and spooky season so well. 

Watch cartoons with your friends! It's a good time.

Saturday, October 12, 2024

Re: Being an Adult Dancer (or trying to)

I'm so frustrated with dancing as an adult. Primarily with ballet, although this has limited applications to other styles of dance. I have performed other styles as an adult though, and ballet is definitely the worst ageism wise. 

Before getting into my rant, I was a pretty serious ballet dancer in high school. Never was professional level, but I have been taking dance lessons my whole life. I stopped performing after high school, but kept up with classes and performed different styles in college and post-college. It's not a priority anymore, but I don't consider myself to be an adult beginner by any means.

I've been trying to find somewhere, some studio, where I can perform in the Nutcracker again (or any ballet but that's the most widespread). And it is so hard. From looking online, your only options are if you go to a smaller studio that happens to put on its own production and takes its students. If you live somewhere that has a professional company that already puts on the Nutcracker, you're out of luck because odds are they're taking all of the audience. Or if your studio focuses entirely on the pre-professional kids, also out of luck because less resources go to the adults.

Since I'm in graduate school, that's more or less where I'm at. I still take classes through the university but since I'm not a dance major I can't perform anywhere (I'm getting my PhD in genetics for context, I'm not in the dance school). I start looking for something, anything, in the area that 1. has auditions where you don't need to be a student there, and 2. takes adults. There's nothing! So few places do this.

I found exactly one studio that's 2 hours away from me and says it takes community members. I reached out to confirm, and the woman on the phone said that "there's plenty of roles" and that since I'm 2 hours away they could "give me a part where I wouldn't be needed every weekend." And I thought that sounded perfect.

Audition comes, I drive 2 hours, do the audition, and drive back the 2 hours. From my perspective, it went really well and the students they had there weren't that much better than me. Casting announcement drops and I get a whole email saying "Congrats! We are so proud of all of you" and I didn't get cast. At all. All of the people I auditioned with have at least 4 roles each and not a one could be spared for me.

I'll be honest, I feel a little like I was hustled into paying the audition fee. Because they probably decided they wanted to prioritize their own students, or the distance would mean I couldn't attend enough rehearsals, or there's something that they knew in advance would limit me and they still encouraged me to audition anyways! What a waste of my time.

I've been like low-key in a depression since then, and my heart super hasn't been in dancing since that. And I'm terrified that if I reach out and ask what happened I'll get told any number of silly things from "my body type was wrong" to "you wouldn't be able to attend enough rehearsals." Because what's the point, I can do this thing my whole life and I'll likely never get on a stage again. Ballet is just such a young person's game, there are so few resources if you want to continue past the age of 18 non-professionally. I wish that this would change, but I doubt it.

Wednesday, October 9, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Apple Picking

 It's fall and that means it's cider mill season! Just got back from an orchard where we picked apples and got hot cider and a bunch of donuts. I love excuses to eat apple cider donuts, they are so good. And with the leaves finally falling, it really feels like summer is over and fall is here! It's lovely. Best weather at this point too when it's still pretty warm so you don't need a ton of layers but there's a bit of a chill that just energizes you! It's fall time babayyyyyy!

Sunday, October 6, 2024

“Black Powder War” by Naomi Novik

This is the third installment in the Temeraire series, which I am definitely hooked on (you can read about the first book here and the second one here). It continues to expand the world of Temeraire, and develops Temeraire’s revolutionary thoughts which I am so here for.

Opening of the book has the squad in China, where their ship gets busted so they have to fly over land. As a result Laurence picks up a guide, Tharkay, who remains a bit of a mystery throughout the book, sometimes seeming sinister and other times helpful. They make it through the desert and from there get to Istanbul where their mission is to obtain 3 dragon eggs for Britain. From there it seems like a bit of a mystery as the officials there say that they cannot give them the eggs as the British ambassador has taken off before the payment was finalized. Laurence does some digging and decides to simply steal the eggs as they were paid for and finalized. They make off with the eggs and from there end up in Austria fighting off Napoleon. The albino dragon Lien has joined Napoleon and seeks to crush Temeraire and co for killing her captain. The egg holding a fire breathing dragon hatches so Granby finally gets his own dragon, and Tharkay saves the day by bringing back a group of feral dragons they befriended earlier, and the book ends with the whole squad heading back to England.

Alright so we are a little short on the action in this book, but there is a lot of traveling which is cool to see because then you see the towns along the way. Feels very “Game of Thrones” in that way. There are also some cool characters that get added, such as Tharkay and the feral dragons. You definitely see the rest of the world, and I thought the glimpse we get of Austria and Turkey were a lot of fun, although we aren’t there long enough to get a true picture of it. It feels a little untethered with all of the traveling around, but with the smaller crew it still feels close so it doesn’t matter as much.

Temeraire is determined to get back to England and liberate the dragons there. Laurence is trying to dissuade him best he can as he doesn’t think that Temeraire will be successful, at one point saying that they have to defeat Napoleon first, but Laurence is slowly warming up to the idea. I am fascinated by this plot point because it means the author has to reckon with how you change society to make others more accepted. There are some parallels for humans, for example a big point is that infrastructure needs to change so that huge dragons can navigate streets. Humans need to be less scared of dragons too, making a sort of case for a disability parallel or other marginalized groups. I think it’ll be so cool to see how this progresses.

I am excited to see them head back to England in part so that there are more consistent characters. Having characters appear for only one book is a little frustrating, but I’m hoping with this next book Tharkay sticks around for longer. I’ve mentioned previously that characters keep dying without much fanfare, and with this one it felt less like that because the crew was smaller so you can’t kill them off without implications.

I think that’s enough for now, but onwards to the next installment! It is great to dive into a long series that really has me hooked, I have not done this in a while.

Wednesday, October 2, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Fight Night

 So went to my first play of the academic year, and it was a lot of fun and also thought provoking! "Fight Night" is a play about elections, and it manages to be incredibly political while not mentioning politics at all (that's how it was described to me and I was confused but that statement is 100% accurate now that I've seen it). 

The play has 5 candidates, and you start by voting for which one you think looks cool, then they start talking about values and things like that and you keep voting. The first round they are able to combine votes though, and there's other surprises like a blind vote and such. I was curious how much actually changes when you vote though, with the combining votes they could get the same person off every time. And by the end the candidates were all suggesting different ways of doing things that seemed distinct from what they said earlier on. I'm not sure. But it doesn't make you think about voting, and the importance of voting too. 

Anyways I'm a huge fan of art that you can participate in, so this was cool for me. And its clearly making a political statement, so can't fault them for not trying to say something. Ended up being a cool night out!

Saturday, September 28, 2024

“Throne of Jade” by Naomi Novik

This is the sequel to His Majesty’s Dragon which I wrote about previously (you can find it here). This follow up comes right on the heels of that book, and also deals with some consequences from the finale of the first book.

As Temeraire has been revealed to be a Celestial dragon from China, we get dropped into a meeting that several British officials are having with Chinese officials with Laurence in England. Laurence has been separated from Temeraire as they negotiate whether to return Temeraire to China or not. Of course the British officials don’t want to, but they also do not want to anger the Chinese officials since the relationship between China and England is not the best. This eventually ends quite predictably with Temeraire getting annoyed, grabbing Laurence, and flying off. He returns to the other British dragons just in time for a fight, which Laurence joins in since he’s basically going to be accused of treason after this.

After the battle, they decide to send both Laurence and his crew with Temeraire to China. Laurence even gets his previous second-in-command from the navy to sail them there. And they have to take the whole Chinese delegation with them. The Chinese prince tries throughout the voyage to get between Laurence and Temeraire by feeding Temeraire Chinese food, which is much more elaborate and similar to what humans eat, so Temeraire takes a liking to it. He also enjoys learning poetry that dragons in China have written. Laurence survives a few attempts on his life as well, although he cannot prove anything. Throughout Hammound, the translator from Britain, tries to spin all of this in a way where they can get a British embassy in China and they butt heads quite a few times.

Once they get to China, the most striking thing is that dragons are treated essentially like people. They can go where they like, spend money, write, and everything. The Chinese prince turns out to have an albino Celestial dragon, a sign of bad luck. The others avoid her, but despite that dragons roam throughout the streets and don’t cause any alarm. Temeraire sees this and loves it as he has been pining for more freedom in England. Things come to a head when a gang tries to kill Laurence and his crew, Temeraire was off with a lady dragon and gets mad, so when the next attempt on Laurence’s life comes in the middle of a performance, he kills both the assassin and the Chinese prince. The albino dragon is enraged but the death of her companion causes her to stand down. Laurence is then adopted by the Chinese emperor to both cause the Celestials to stay in the Emperor’s family, and gain some favor for Britain in China.

By far the most interesting part of the book is the contrast between the treatment of dragons between England and China. As a reader, it is revealing to see this and realize that yeah, dragons don’t have freedom in England. But you don’t question it too much in the first book because you’re still learning about the world so Laurence’s assumptions are your own. Seeing Temeraire get slowly radicalized and then enthused about returning to England to change the treatment of dragons is really exciting to see, I’m most interested in seeing how he decides to pull that off back in England.

The other aspect of the book that is slowly bothering me more and more is the treatment of characters within the crew. We are given snippets about them, some characters just have names and others have more of a personality, but the bulk of the ones that die have little more than a name. It feels a little frustrating as a name gets dropped and you don’t have a context or a background to pair it with. When a character is killed off with just a name, it feels like you either should know more about them to mourn them more, or just shouldn’t know them at all and not have this burden with it. I just wish it went more one way or another, are these throw away characters or are they actual people we should be upset over? And since they’re all essentially in the army it isn’t uncommon for characters to end up dead or drowned but there also doesn’t seem to be a real decrease in the number of people in the crew anyways.

I already got the third book in the series, I’m excited to see where it goes from here! It has been a while since I got this into a series so this is really nice.

Wednesday, September 25, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Sick Days

Bear with me a little on this one, I ended up getting a cold last week that absolutely knocked me on my ass. I was down for the count Thursday and Friday. I think because it's the first semester I was teaching without a mask on, I got my first real cold in a while, and my body just wasn't used to functioning with that.

Anyways, this is beautiful though because 1. I can take time off without losing money. I'm a graduate students so I'm not making a ton but that isn't decreased by this. And also, I think I just really needed a day to lay on the couch? It wasn't like, a fun day on the couch, but it did force me to do that.

So yeah, take days off when you need them/can take them. It's good for you. 

Friday, September 20, 2024

“The Search” by Gene Luen Yang

I think this is the first time that I picked up this graphic novel of the Avatar universe (see here for the prequel to this). In some ways, this is the follow-up to the series that fans want after the animated show ends since it deals with what happened to Zuko’s mom.

The book starts with Zuko getting the gang back together to travel with Azula to the town that their mom is from. Azula is cooperating on and off with them, with the gang arguing that she’s too dangerous and Zuko trying to work with her and save their relationship. Along the way they meet another brother/sister pair who is looking for a spirit in the woods that can heal the brother’s face. Aang speaks to the spirit and the spirit agrees to one favor, which is when Azula cuts in to get information about their mother. It’s revealed that the spirit gave their mother a new face and altered her memories to not remember Zuko and Azula. The spirit disappears without helping the other pair, causing Aang to follow it and enrage the spirit. They smooth things over eventually, and the brother’s face is restored. They then head to where Zuko’s mom is to restore her memories. This way, they are able to repair a relationship between a brother and a sister, and a mother and a son.

This book feels much more… complete than The Promise. The Promise was primarily plot driven to update people on what the characters are doing post show. You would expect this one to be much of the same, given that so many fans want to know what happened here, but it’s got so much more going on thematically.

Relationships within families play a huge role. There’s the obvious ones like Zuko/his mom, but there’s also sibling relationships like Zuko/Azula and Sokka/Katara. Azula manages to escape in the end, leaving her without a redemption and also without repairing her relationships to either her mother or her brother. But it highlights the different parallels really well between the broken and the supportive relationships.

There’s also identity and how faces and memories construct a person’s identity. Zuko’s mom is still his mom, even if she doesn’t remember it. But once her memories are restored, you see her appearance change as she looks more stately. Same thing with the brother having his face restored, he clearly becomes more of a character who can speak for himself after that.

I need to make time to look at the rest of the graphic novels, but for now they work really well in between when I’m waiting for other books since it’s a quick read. But it is amazing that I haven’t gotten to them all yet and how good they are!

Wednesday, September 18, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Paper Published

 A paper that I have been working on for the past year has finally been published! It is "The methodological and ethical concerns of genetic studies of same-sex sexual behavior" and it is out in AJHG as of last week! I'm so glad that this paper is out in the world and out of my brain, it represents a lot of work on my end and I really hope this makes a positive change in the scientific community.

Saturday, September 14, 2024

“His Majesty’s Dragon” by Naomi Novik

I picked up this book because I walked into a bookstore and just needed to read a book with a dragon on the cover. It does indeed have a dragon. I also flipped through it and one of the reviews said that it was this year’s Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell and that’s one of my favorite books ever so I knew I had to pick it up.

This book is (similar to Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell) a fantasy alternate universe story that takes place during the Napoleonic Wars. The captain of a ship in the British navy, Laurence, takes a French ship that ends up having a dragon egg on it. It quickly becomes clear that the dragon is going to hatch before they make it to land, so the sailors draw lots for who gets to harness the dragon. (A quirk of the dragons in this universe is that they have to be harnessed immediately or they fly away, and whoever harnesses the dragon becomes the dragon’s rider and caretaker.) Laurence manages to not have his name pulled, but when the dragon hatches it chooses him anyways. He names the dragon Temeraire. They travel up to Scotland to begin their training for the British Aerial Corps, a group of dragon handlers that fight from the skies.

There they meet many more characters, there’s Lily the Longwing who spits poison and her female handler (the Longwings only have female riders). And while Temeraire grows and develops, they get sucked into a few battles. It quickly becomes clear that Temeraire is no ordinary dragon, they knew that he was a Chinese dragon but during battle he roars and splits a boat apart, revealing him to be a Chinese Celestial dragon, one of the rarest and most highly prized.

I had a lot of fun reading this book! The characters are entertaining and the world being built is highly inventive. I love seeing the dragons incorporated into the world, there’s talk of wild dragons and dragon breeding programs (English dragons are bred for speed and Chinese dragons are bred for intelligence). Temeraire and the other dragons also talk and are well-formed characters themselves, there’s a dragon that runs the training program in Scotland even. It’s a fun world to be exploring in which definitely keeps me turning pages.

This book also focuses on the dragon handlers themselves. There’s the Longwings which have female characters and allow the book to not just be men only which is so nice to see. Women are allowed to fly around and fight, but to keep to the time period they usually hide it from the rest of society, and it is pretty clearly only because the Longwings prefer women. So it integrates rather well.

There’s also the interesting case of a poor dragon who is continually ignored by his handler. It really shows how the dragons are not lesser beings, but have full sentience in that this beast stays loyal to his handler, but suffers mightily when ignored. Unsurprisingly, this is due to nepotism in the Corps as well, and shows that they aren’t an idyllic group in the slightest. Laurence does try to intervene but is eventually told off and can’t help the dragon any longer.

I’m very excited to read the rest of this series, I already put in a request at the library! It truly is the ideal dragon series for me, with the dragons talking and flying and excellent world building. I can’t wait to see what comes next!

Wednesday, September 11, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Lab Retreat

 This past Friday was my lab's retreat, it was really nice to both take a day off from science and also to get to know my lab mates a little better. In science we forget so frequently that science is done by people, and done by the people around us. We need to take more time to remember that and just think about our work less. But hey, that's my hot take. I get so frustrated when "retreats" involve just talking about work on the weekend, this was a nice breath of fresh air where we weren't thinking about science at all.

Saturday, September 7, 2024

“Warrior Queens and Quiet Revolutionaries” by Kate Mosse

I was gifted this book by a friend for my last birthday, and I finally got around to cracking it open! The book is really interesting, the idea is that it is an overview of women who historically have been overlooked by history and whose legacies are mostly unknown. The entire thing is framed by Mosse researching one of her ancestors, Lily, a woman who wrote many books and articles in her lifetime but is unknown now to historians.

The result is a fascinating mix of the personal and the historical. Mosse talks about how frustrating it is to not find letters from Lily talking about how she felt and what she thought. Lily is anti-suffrage for women and Mosse talks about how she really wanted to agree with everything Lily thought. But despite it all, she thinks she would like Lily.

Because the sections on Lily are not that wrong and most of the other women get a paragraph or two it is a big book but a quick read. You get snapshots of the women, not biographies. But there are so many women that I had not heard of before in here, I actually flagged a few pages for when I am teaching later this semester.

The only comment I have is that Mosse has a pretty distinctive writing style where she likes to leave off paragraphs with something pithy, and trail off… It is fine a few times but starts to get a bit predictable after a while. You just want her to end the paragraph simply and move on! Transitions are probably the hardest thing to get right and I don’t blame her at all but still… (haha).

It is an informative read and a quick read, with the personal touch really sucking you in. I’m pretty pleased with it as my birthday gift!

Wednesday, September 4, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Done With Cell Work

 I finally got the ok from my mentor to be done with cell culturing and it feels sooooo nice! No more daily media changes! I didn't even go to lab a few days this week. With teaching at a different university and swapping to analysis, it's really nice to be on my own schedule more, and to boot I don't have to worry about parking at the university either. What a great time, I still have a few more experiments to do, but they won't take very long and certainly won't involve weekend work. So nice!

Saturday, August 31, 2024

“But Will You Love Me Tomorrow?” by Laura Flam and Emily Sieu Liebowitz

I got this book ages ago and just never had the chance to pick it up. But then very conveniently, I read it while I was on vacation right before heading to the Motown Museum in Detroit! So I’ll throw in a few thoughts on that as well.

The book is formatted in a really interesting way. The authors conducted oral interviews with many people involved in the Motown girl groups that were all the rage in the 50s and 60s. The book then consists of quotes from all of these interviews put together thematically and chronologically. There are a few author’s notes here and there but it is primarily just quotes. The result is that it can feel a little disconnected, I mean the quotes all go together but there are some sections I had to reread to figure out who we are all talking about and things like that. It is cool though that you get multiple perspectives from a single passage.

I know a few things about the girl groups, I really like the Shirelles and the Marvelettes, but largely I was a novice coming in. I certainly didn’t know the names of the girls! So I thought it was really cool to get a peak behind the music at the individuals involved. I also know vaguely that Motown was exploitative of its artists, but it is wild to read about how the girls didn’t get paid and rarely even had the rights to their names.

I would say that this is an invaluable resource for anyone interested in these groups, whether you are knowledgeable or not. It’s a cool intro to these groups, and I bet even people who know a lot can learn things from the interviews.

Now I mentioned visiting the Motown Museum and I was really surprised by that experience. Of course it’s very pro-Motown as a company and it doesn’t mention any of the issues with artists getting paid or anything like that. But I was shocked that the Shirelles aren’t anywhere in the museum that I could find. They were Motown’s biggest girl group, they should have been celebrated there! And after reading this book, I think that’s because they were one of the few groups that fought to keep the rights to their name. So it’s a little bit of a fuck you to them. And seeing the physical location of the recording studio was cool, but honestly? I liked the experience of reading the book better. I felt I got more out of it.

So you heard it here, I preferred this book to the physical location talked about. It was super cool to pair them together, but reading the book felt so much more comprehensive and accurate to what the performers were experiencing then.

Wednesday, August 28, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Community

 Alright so I've been back at work for a week and a half and it has not been great because I keep thinking about how I could be at home watching tv and doing nothing. It is nice to see people again though, a lot of things have been having back-to-the-semester events and that's fun. It helps coming back to feel like I do have something to come back to that I like, and seeing people that I haven't interacted with in a while does do the trick with that.

Saturday, August 24, 2024

“Book of Enchantments” by Patricia A. Wrede

My partner and I went through Wrede’s whole Enchanted Forest Chronicles, and after that he started reading this book of short stories to me as well. It’s a fun collection, and since each chapter is different it made for a fun experience reading it aloud.

The stories are pretty diverse, but most of them involve retelling some fairy tale in an unusual or surprising way. There are some that are in funky fantasy lands, and also some set in the modern day and age. Plenty are from a new or untraditional perspective, such as from a sister or someone observing the main action.

There are two stories that intersect with the Enchanted Forest Chronicles of course. One of them is about a unicorn living in the Enchanted Forest itself, so while the characters of the story are new the setting certainly is not. I didn’t realize until I read the afterword, but there are not any unicorns in the main story, and this was written for a collection specifically including unicorns. The other story is the last one, and this is the only story written specifically for this collection. It follows our favorite Queen Cimorene and how she organizes a whole competition just to figure out the warrior meant to wield the Frying Pan of Doom. It is quite fun.

I really liked this collection of stories! Not all of them are my favorite, but they all bring something new to the table, and the vast majority have an excellent sense of humor. I would recommend all of Wrede’s writing, but perhaps if you are unsure this would make for a pretty good place to start.

Wednesday, August 21, 2024

This Is Beautiful: The Dragon Prince

 While I was on vacation, I rewatched all of "The Dragon Prince" to catch myself up before watching the new season 6. It has been really great to revisit it! I forgot how bad the animation was for the first season, and how many silly meme references there were throughout.

I am just getting to the new season now, but I am excited! I love this show, I'm so glad we keep getting new content even if it's sporadic.

Saturday, August 17, 2024

“The Immaculate Conception of Data” by Kelly Bronson

So I decided to pursue a certificate in science, technology, and society (STS) as well as my PhD, because I simply did not have enough to do apparently. The group of STS students decided to invest in a bunch of books, and this happened to be the one that I picked up as it looked most relevant to my interests in how we perceive science and what we do with it. It was definitely an academic read, but pretty cool to go through.

The immaculate conception of data is the idea that tech bros and the like subscribe to, it is immaculate because it believes that data comes straight from the universe without human intervention, and that the data will only improve people’s lives and productivity. There is a lot in the book about environmental benefits as well, but those are seen as a side result and as such do not play into the immaculate conception of data concretely.

This framework is built on through the use of big data in agriculture. Bronson has interviewed farmers, engineers, and others that collect this data and market it to farmers for their use in growing crops. Quite a lot of the book consists of quotes from these interviews, as well as Bronson putting her ideas into the context of STS thinkers. (It is really cool to see writers I read about in class cited in an actual book.) She talks about the promises as well as the pitfalls of this technology. This includes how farmers become more efficient, but also there can be issues with programming the smart tractors and things like that.

It is an interesting look into the idea of “big data” and how it gets used in an industry that we do not typically associate with “big data.” I can say that I knew agriculture was big and competitive, but I didn’t realize how much data was being collected and marketed to farmers in need of a leg up on the competition. It is pretty academic so it would not make for great light reading, but was still cool to read about!

Wednesday, August 14, 2024

This Is Beautiful: The Mask of the Rose

 So while I'm taking some time off I really wanted to play through a video game. I ended up picking "The Mask of the Rose" which is a visual novel. It has a really cool aesthetic, London of the Victorian Age has fallen through the crust of the Earth. You're trying to solve the first murder down there, and maybe finding love while you're at it.

I've only done one playthrough, but I'm really intrigued. The murder mystery is cool and not at all easy to figure out, but it's possible. And there seems to be a ridiculous amount to explore, you can't do it all in one go so replays are necessary. I'm excited to be exploring it!

One thing I hope gets explored more is that there's a character who is a writer of stories, and there's a mechanism in the game where you create stories to ask questions or propose ideas. I hope there's more about the importance of stories, and how stories can influence the world around them. That'd be cool. But we'll see, there wasn't much in my first play through so I'm mostly hoping that develops.

Saturday, August 10, 2024

“Muneera and the Moon” by Sonia Sulaiman

This book I ordered and read primarily because it is written by a Palestinian asexual author, which is really cool, and also because I listened to a podcast where they read one of her stories and the writing was just beautiful. So a win-win situation!

There’s a wide range of short stories in this collection, but the vast majority have to do with Palestinian culture and the diaspora. For example, there’s a beautiful one about Palestinian clothing and how it feels to try on a part of your culture. There is also a Palestinian retelling of Snow White that I was very amused by as it calls itself out, and Orpheus and Eurydice make an appearance.

To be honest, some were just too short for me to really get into them (which is also part of why short stories aren’t typically for me) but the longer ones are just beautiful. “Handala. The Olive, the Storm, and the Sea” is the story I heard through the podcast and being able to revisit it written down was just stunning. The words just flow off of the page.

There’s also a lot of great ace rep, in particular some ace male representation. There’s a prince who just wants companionship and the opening story involves the titular Muneera loving the Moon. It is really cool to see diverse representation and also representation that isn’t aimed to just educate the audience. There are probably people reading this who do not know the exact terms “asexual spectrum” but still get the sense that to not want sex is normal and fine.

I really enjoyed this read and getting deeper in Sulaiman’s works. She has another anthology and a book and other exciting things coming up, so I can’t wait to get my hands on those as well!

Wednesday, August 7, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Vacation Finally

 Last week was really rough, I had two days that racked up to at least 10 hours in lab each (one was closer to 12 for sure) and combined with some dread over just getting the go ahead for these experiments, it made for a now so fun couple of weeks. But we got the go ahead, and we did it, and that's great. The better part of this is that I had been planning a little staycation for a while, even before I knew these experiments were last week, so going from intense stress to time off was really nice.

I'm so glad I didn't plan much, I'm finally getting to just laze around, watch some tv, play some games, and do the things I really wanted to do.

Sunday, August 4, 2024

“The Promise” by Gene Luen Yang

I am pretty sure that I read this previously, but in the wait for my next book I decided to revisit it since it was available at my library. The story follows the events of the animated show.

The main story has to do with the fire nation colonies in the earth nation. The leaders start a Harmony Restoration Movement to pull the fire nation citizens out. However they run into trouble, one of the colonies is about 100 years old and the fire nation citizens there have started families and turned the city into a mix of both fire and earth nations. Zuko separately gets Aang to promise that Aang will kill Zuko if Zuko starts to act like his father. After spending time at the colony, Zuko pulls out of the Harmony Restoration Movement and the others get worried about him. The earth king moves to send his army against the fire nations. (Meanwhile Toph has started a metal bending school.) In the end, Aang comes around to Zuko and does not want to keep the elements separate. Next though, Zuko wants to focus on finding his mother.

This is a really cool story because it deals with the really real issues with resolving the conflict from the tv show. Yeah they got rid of the bad guy, but there’s still a lot of ordinary people that have to deal with the consequences. You get to see how people in the earth kingdom want the fire nation out and the people in the fire nation colony want to defend their way of life.

It also leads pretty smoothly into the events of Korra. You see Aang start up his acolytes and the start of the city that incorporates all of the elements together. It’s a nice way to bridge the two together because making a tv show is just so darn expensive. But it shows that the writers had a place in mind for where to take the story and what they wanted to accomplish along the way to make it all make sense. It definitely flows naturally too, you see Aang struggle with his fan clubs and how they treat his culture before he turns them into acolytes.

I should really read the rest of the graphic novels, and I probably will eventually, but this was a nice revisit!

Wednesday, July 31, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Frozen Burrito Meal Prep

 Ok so bit of an odd choice, but I've swapped lately to making frozen burritos for lunch as a meal prep. This is honestly next level, I can make a ton and freeze them, and can bring salsa or whatever so that it doesn't taste the same every day. And it doesn't require nearly as much day-of work as like making a sandwich or whatever, just a grab and go. I also feel a lot better with making it just a bean burrito and a tortilla so it's less bread and less meat but still filling. Anyways, this is a great idea in the saga of me trying to Enjoy Lunch, hopefully I keep it up for a while.

Saturday, July 27, 2024

“Uptown Local and Other Interventions” by Diane Duane

This is my last installment in my read through of Duane’s ebooks. This is a little different in that it is a collection of short stories and they do not all take place in the Young Wizards series. Duane also gives a short preamble to most of the stories which I think adds a lot, because you get to see parts of her thought process, such as how one story grew and expanded into another.

Of course my favorites were the ones from the Young Wizard universe though. There’s a great one about chocolate that involves an entirely separate group of wizards from the main series. I thought it was a lot of fun that it was still on Earth and yet with a different cast that’s just as colorful.

And then of course there’s the story “Uptown Local” itself. This one centers on Nita and Kit who are bored out of their minds and go to annoy Tom and Carl. They get sent on a magical subway journey where they head to alternate versions of New York and see what they can find. Only stipulation is that they hand off the Subway tokens to someone else once done. They end up bringing someone else to their world, and slowly making it better.

It's not a collection that I would be likely to pick up separately, but I’m glad I had the opportunity to do so this time around!

Wednesday, July 24, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Volunteering at the Art Fair!

 The town that I'm in has a huge art fair every summer, it's like one of the biggest in the country and people come from all over. This year I signed up to volunteer at it, and I had such a blast! It was a great way to see some booths that I wouldn't have stopped at otherwise. I also was forced to spent more time in one area, meaning that I ran into a bunch of friends as they passed through. I loved the experience, I'll have to remember to sign up again next year!

Saturday, July 20, 2024

Minneapolis

This past weekend I was in a conference in Minneapolis, Minnesota! I hadn’t been before so I was really excited to explore the city. I didn’t get to St. Paul at all, which is unfortunate, but I didn’t have a ton of time there.

First of all, I loved the public transit. You could take the light rail to the airport and get around super easily that way. The bus system also was pretty sweet, buses came frequently and you could get anywhere the rail system didn’t that way. I was able to get around without hyper planning out every move, which is saying something. I loved it, I didn’t need or want to have a car and could get places quickly!

My first day I headed down to the Minneapolis Institute of Art. It wasn’t the most expansive collection, but there was a solid smattering of stuff. There were also so many recreations of rooms from different periods of time! To the point where it got a little confusing and I got all turned around. But I really liked their collection! There were a few small exhibits focusing on race or female artists or things like that.

After that I went to the sculpture garden, mostly to see the cherry on a spoon. That was a great picture, but there was also a large blue chicken I enjoyed. And from there I went to the Old Stone Bridge, which was unfortunately closed. But it was cool to see!

Then I made it to the Mill Street Museum. I ended up just going through the free spaces, not paying to go in, but that was enough for me. There was an exhibit on queer spaces that I enjoyed. And I also stopped by the House of Balls, a house next to a rail station where a sculptor set up his workshop and displayed his art. It was really weird and I loved it! The garden was the best spot, there were so many cool things there, including giant feet and wind chimes.

I also got into the skyway system for a little. It was odd, the section I was in had carpet and air conditioning. I knew it from 99 Percent Invisible that the skyways are designed to keep out homeless individuals and all that, and my experience there definitely lined up with that. It was so hard to find an entrance and the buildings close at odd times, etc etc.

I’m not sure if it’s just me getting out of a college town or what, but I loved Minneapolis! I hope I’m able to get back there at some point.

Wednesday, July 17, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Solo Conferences

 I might have written about this before, but whatever. This past weekend was my second solo conference ever, and it has been a while since the last one. It's just so much fun to set your own schedule, do what you're interested in, and not worry about the rest of your lab reporting back on your activities or judging or whatever (I don't think they do any of those things, but it's going from the possibility of it to absolutely no chance of it). It's also coming at a time when I desperately need a break, so I'm thinking of this as a mini-vacation.

Kind of related though, it's a conference that the rest of my lab isn't interested in, so I am truly free to do whatever I want. I'm very excited to be attending a lot of it!

Saturday, July 13, 2024

Supervision of Mentees

 With the undergraduate researchers that I've been working with, I'm starting to run into issues of supervision. Not that they aren't doing their work or that they're doing it completely wrong, but I suspect that they are cutting corners in key ways because I'm seeing things fail down the line. And this is coming at a time where I'm out of lab for the weekend.

Since it was crunch time, I did a few things. I sent a scary email telling them to buckle down, and asked that they go over protocols together. I also tried out a new thing: they're uploading pictures to a google drive folder that I can look at on my own time. There's a few benefits to this, including that I won't get texts constantly throughout the day and I can look over the pictures on my own time. Plus I get to feel like I get a complete update on what's going on.

I feel a little weird about this, to be completely honest. I don't what my students to think that I don't trust them, or that I'm giving them a ton of busy work. But I think for a weekend its manageable and it seems useful. At time of writing we are a day in, but I'm pretty pleased with the results.

We will certainly see, I want to ask the students what they thought of this system once I get back. But I do think it was good to instill a sense of the seriousness of this. Hopefully this means things start going right so we can end the summer on a high note.

Wednesday, July 10, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Middle of the Week Holidays

 Alright so I don't know what did it, but July 4th this year was so nice. It was last Thursday, and because it was in the middle of the week and in the middle of experiments, I still had to go in and work. But I was good about doing very little work, and then because everything was cancelled I went home and relaxed. And then the next day was a Friday and a lot of people took it off so even though I couldn't I still felt like I was working on a holiday.

Not a fan of July 4th in general (fireworks are annoying and this country needs to get it together) but having it be on a Thursday was really nice!

Saturday, July 6, 2024

"Interim Errantry 2: On Ordeal" by Diane Duane

 So this is Duane's series of short stories based on the Young Wizards universe (you can read about the first one here). And this one has a theme, is it three tellings of different characters Ordeals, or the harrowing experience/test that makes them wizards. She starts with Roshaun, then Mamvish, and finally Ronan.

Roshaun's Ordeal until now has been largely a mystery. Essentially, both of his parents are wizards and he has just about given up on becoming one himself when he is finally offered the Oath. He travels to the Crossings where he learns of another system whose star is about to go haywire and he steps in to fix it. He has a very easy time of it, then runs into the Lone Power telling him not to go home. He doesn't want to do what the Lone One says, but doesn't want to openly defy him either, so clones himself and the clone heads out into the universe to fix stars until energy runs out and he sneaks home. The price is 3 years of his life (which later ties in as his disappearance from Earth's star).

It's really cool to have Roshaun at the center of the story, but I'll be honest, he seems to have an easy time of it. He puts together one complex spell and that's it. Feels a little disappointing. I was also hoping to see Roshaun more like the one we initially meet in the series that's a little more stuck up. This Roshaun was incredibly sympathetic and caring. Which, fine, I liked the experience better, but it would have been interesting to see how his disposition changes over time.

Second story is Mamvish's, and it describes the planet of dinosaurs she grows up on. She is born and immediately wants to start putting the world to rights. The interesting thing about these dinos is that when they eat each other, they learn what the other dinosaur knew. So Mamvish eats a strong dinosaur and gets stronger, a fast one and gets faster, a wizard and starts to learn the Speech. This goes on until the Lone One backs out of her Ordeal, and she starts traveling around helping the universe.

This is fascinating because the dinosaur's way of learning is so different. Mamvish doesn't just learn their knowledge she has their voices speaking in the back of her head giving advice. Which makes for a really cool concept for a species and then for interesting narration. Most of the time Mamvish is alone so hearing about the voices in her head is pretty interesting. It also doesn't make Mamvish feel too powerful either, because you hear about her learning as she goes, and how driven she is from the beginning. She is special and selected by the Powers, but she also does put in a lot of effort to get to where she is.

Finally there's Ronan. We know a bit about his Ordeal, that he had to take in the sea to save a boat in the past, but this gets way more into the details. Ronan beats a racist kid at school and gets suspended, and while wandering around avoiding home has a vision where his best friend offers him the Oath. The next day he timeslides back to an early Irish village in the middle of a storm. First he stops the wind and saves the village, but there's also a boat in the water. So he takes in the water to be it and subdue it, and saves the boat before passing out and waking up in his own time. 

Ronan's was probably my favorite, but I'm biased as he's one of my favorite characters. It seemed like it hit a good balance of showing Ronan's home life, what his Ordeal dealt with, and the obstacles he had to overcome. It also went into the impact of his Ordeal, where he starts doing better in school and the people that he saves go on to do other things. My only issue is that the racist incident at the beginning where he beats another student up smacks of white saviorism. The Black student barely gets to speak, which isn't great if you want to show a person with agency.

Finally there's a bonus story, "Owl Be Home for Christmas." It follows a little owl who makes a home in a tree that then gets cut down. She then is offered the Oath and becomes a wizard, and rallies the other owls to get her tree back (her tree is the Rockefeller Christmas tree). The NYC wizards are now grown up and get together to try and patch this so that no one notices the tree flying off, but the owl gets to keep her tree. 

This one takes place in the socially distanced 2020, and the characters are adults which is really cute. Kit arrives in a suit and its revealed that Nita works in the Planetary Wizard's office now. It's a cute story, I don't have too much to say about it besides that it's enjoyable and fun to read, which is a pretty high compliment in my opinion.

All in all, I quite liked this collection and the theme it has. The first Interim Errantry was a good time with the different stories but knowing what's coming next is also really nice. I would highly recommend both of these!

Wednesday, July 3, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Free Time

 Yet another post about how something ended that I'm doing and now I have more free time. Lol. Anyways Shakespeare in the Arb is finally over, and it's so nice having weekends back! I wasn't as burnt out on the show as I usually am, mostly because I got lucky and had a weekend off from performances, but it's still nice to not have that going on. Finally time to focus on having a nice summer!

Saturday, June 29, 2024

The Balance of Organizing

 What has been really interesting to see as the new tech chair for my student union is the tension that seems to exist with technology. The tech team is very focused on safety and security, while others seem to lean much closer to utility and what they can do quickly. In a sense I understand both sides, organizing is hard work and there are a lot of factors to balance, but I am also a little surprised.

Now with organizing you have to collect a lot of data. You have information about who is in the union, who is eligible to be in the union, who is attending different events, and who is interested in getting more involved. But you also have a team that primarily consists of a small group of dedicated students who need to do a lot of stuff very quickly. And while both safety and speed are important to everyone, there are different priorities for different groups.

It seems like the issue is that tech is brought on to specialize on this, but they aren't always heeded. And also that there's a lack of compromise, or just an attempt to understand why someone is saying something else. And I mean that from both sides, truly. Which is all very unfortunate. But it does seem to me that if you're going to bring people on to run an aspect of the group, you should probably let them do their job.

Now I don't think that this issue is unique to this group, I think it exists everywhere with organizing. Which is interesting, it's an aspect that I don't think I ever really considered before. Do you want to move fast and break things? Or create systems that are super secure and last? It's a push and pull between the two. I'm really looking forward to this position, and thinking more about how to reconcile the two as I go.

Wednesday, June 26, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Not Going Into Work

 First weekend in a while that I haven't had to physically be in work! Not that I wasn't working, but at least I didn't have to go in and deal with the cells. It's been a while of doing that every single day and at least I got a respite there. (It was to go to a work conference, but still.)

Saturday, June 22, 2024

“Interim Errantry” by Diane Duane

Having finally finished the cats series, I have now turned to a book of short stories Duane wrote about the characters in the Young Wizards series. They’re really cute! All of the stories take place between A Wizard of Mars and Games Wizards Play.

The first story takes place on Halloween. Nita befriends her pumpkin, and the night takes a turn for the eventful when the pumpkin senses something happening at its patch. Turns out that a horde of zombies are attacking there. Nita, Kit, Ronan, Darryl, and Dairine fight them off, using the power of the pumpkin. It’s a cute story, I especially loved the pumpkin addition.

Next is one about Christmas. Kit’s sister Carmela wants to throw a Christmas party where the main festivity is decorating Filif as a Christmas tree. He loves getting dressed up, and even holds a lit candle at one point, overcoming a fear he had earlier in the series. Filif also fends off the neighborhood boys who love destroying things when they try to take his decorations. This might be my favorite of the three, it’s really heartwarming. And of course it’s about our favorite tree wizard!

Finally there’s a story where the human wizards are sent to a planet to evacuate the beings there as their moon is about to fall onto the planet. It is all from Kit’s perspective, though Nita, Ronan, Dairine, Tom, and Carl are all there as well. The problem is that a lot of the beings there don’t want to leave the planet, and have to be left to make their own decisions. Venting his frustration, Kit talks about this to a species of like octopus pet on the planet. Quickly after that, the species changes its mind and they all get off of the planet. This is the longest story, and it is really nice to have one from Kit’s perspective as well. It's also cute because it references Kit’s connection with Ponch and how he was able to get through to the dog-equivalent on this planet as well.

The afterword is also interesting, it talks about how Duane has been wanting to talk about the more ordinary occurrences in the Young Wizards universe. Because not everything can be about how the world is ending for these guys. And it also talks about how she consulted on a movie that dealt with a moon falling on its planet and the scientific accuracy… left some things to be desired. It is quite nice knowing that she’s an author who does her research haha.

I really liked these, I hadn’t read them before but it is like reading a new book in the series since it is quite long and talks so much about the characters. I especially liked getting to know Filif a little better! There’s another installment of short stories I’ll be reading next and am quite excited about!

Wednesday, June 19, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Summer Picnics

 This past week the department that I'm in for graduate school had its summer picnic and it was a great time! I've been working (too much) and needed a break to go outside and just socialize. The weather is so beautiful these days! 

Saturday, June 15, 2024

Conferences

 The journey that I have gone on with conferences has been interesting. I feel like I have a pretty solid love/hate relationship with conferences now, but it has been a journey in how I think about science and talking to people about science.

During my postbac I went to a single conference and I told myself I had to make the most of it and the fact that I was there and went to everything. And I was exhausted and burnt out by the end. It was also over a weekend so we got back and I immediately had to go to work Monday morning. I did not enjoy that experience for sure.

After that I started graduate school and the pandemic started so it was like I had nothing better to do than to go to these conferences. Also I was able to watch a conference session in my pajamas with ice cream so I didn't fully hate that experience. Once things opened up again I was a little late jumping on the conference train so once I started going I was excited, but I started having a healthier relationship to it. I took time off, I went to what I was interested in and also saw the town and whatever. I did want to have conversations with people and get feedback though, and would go to all of the networking things to chat.

Now though if I'm going I'm doing the bare minimum. I am so close to graduating, I just need to do what I have to do and get out. I'm not looking for feedback, I'm not interested in your thoughts, I get in and get out.

I'm heading to another conference next week. I think it'll be fun, but I also just want to relax so badly.

Wednesday, June 12, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Pride

 Happy Pride! June is a month for celebrating queerness in all of its glory.

I've had a weird relationship to pride month the past few years, not for any like identity based reason, but because I've been doing Shakespeare in the Arb that kinda just becomes my Pride month. With performances every weekend in June, it's hard for it not to. And I really miss being able to go to Pride, or even better when I was in Pride parades all of the time a few years ago. (Hence me forgetting that last week was the first week of Pride even.)

But Pride is still a special time and a special month. I hope that you're all celebrating in your own way and in your own time out there!

Saturday, June 8, 2024

“The Big Meow” by Diane Duane

This is the last book in the feline wizards series from Duane. I thought the first two were mostly ok, and this was… more of the same. 

The plot centers around Rhiow’s team who get called to help with a gate in Los Angelos California. While there a gate mechanic from the past comes to get their help, and they head to 1940s LA. Before heading, they meet Helen Walks Softly, an Indigenous wizard who comes with them. While there, they meet the Silent Man, a man who writes stories and keeps a house full of stray cats. He just ran into this scary dark lady, and since she seems to be a part of this the cats reveal themselves to him and he starts taking them around town. They learn that one of the big LA people is running some sort of cult and that the Lone Power made a deal with an ancient Aztec evil and that this is destabilizing the gate. Meanwhile, their contact for the LA gate from the past, Hwaith, reveals to Rhiow that he would like to be her mate, which she is unable to process for a while. In the end, Rhiow has to channel the Lone Power in the fight against the ancient Aztec deity, there’s huge earthquakes and such, but they emerge victorious. Rhiow finally accepts Hwaith and they unfortunately have to part soon after. But upon returning, Rhiow finds Hwaith waiting for her at home! The Lone Power pulled a few strings to get him to reincarnate near Rhiow, and Rhiow then reveals herself to her human by asking him if they can keep Hwaith.

Alright so this book does have some good stuff in it. Helen Walks Softly is a gem of a character where her being Indigenous and a shaman are portrayed very respectfully and integral to her character. I really loved her addition to the book. But some characters get a little looked over, for example the LA gate cat from modern times did not get blessed with a real personality or anything like that. I kept forgetting he was there.

But it also felt so similar to the previous one in the series. There’s the assistance with another group’s gate, the time travel, and the end of the world or whatever. There’s also the fact that in the previous book they made a big fuss over not being able to stay in the past for very long, but in this one they stay in the 40s for days.

My biggest gripe though is that the stakes just did not make sense to me. They’re there to fix a gate, I’m still not sure how that connects to the cult stuff, other than it was going down in the same town. There’s also a subplot where the cult is stealing hearts from people, that was kinda resolved when they use it in a ritual but not really in that we don’t know specifics here. It in general felt like there were a ton of ideas thrown in, but not a great way to connect them.

Anyways so that’s the conclusion of the feline wizards series. I didn’t love it, but you can’t have every book be a hit. I still love Duane’s work, she’s one of my favorite writers, and I will proceed to read the rest of her stuff!

Wednesday, June 5, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Shakespeare in the Arb Starting!

Shakespeare in the Arb is starting! We've been in dress rehearsals all week, and opening night is tomorrow! We are doing "As You Like It" (which is not a play anyone knows, but that's ok).

I've been feeling pretty eh about the rehearsals, but I am excited to see it go up and to get to performing! That's the actually fun part of this. Rehearsals can be ehh and maybe not feel great, but at the end of the day we get to put this up in front of people and that always feels so much better. It's hot, sweaty, and exhausting, but it's so fun to do!

Saturday, June 1, 2024

Professor Layton and the Curious Village

I was a big fan of the Professor Layton series when I was younger! I had all of the original trilogy on my Nintendo DS and would go back to watch the videos and try out the puzzles I was stuck on again. So when I was seeking something a little more fulfilling to download on my phone, I was pleasantly surprised when I saw that the Layton series was all available for Android!

The plot of the game is fairly simple. You play as the genius Professor Layton and his assistant Luke as they head to the curious village of St. Mystere. You were called there by the widow baron of the village to uncover the puzzles surrounding the late baron’s estate. It has something to do with finding the Golden Apple. As you progress, the villagers ask you to solve puzzles. Quickly though, something is up. One of the members of the household is murdered, and a Detective Inspector Chelmy shows up acting oddly and accusing Layton of the murder. Eventually, Layton makes it to a tower at the north of town and finds Bruno who is the mechanic who has made all of the villagers! At the top of the tower is the Baron’s daughter Flora! Chelmy is exposed as Don Paolo who is Layton’s nemesis, and it’s revealed that when Flora laughs, a birthmark shaped like a heart appears on her collarbone. Tapping that location in a portrait of her reveals a big treasure. However, removing any of the treasure will cause all of the villagers to cease to function. Flora decides to leave the treasure, and she heads back to London with Layton and Luke.

So the story is very cute, it’s all about finding family in odd places and being open to people joining that family. What I also really appreciate is all of the in game reasons for how the game works. All of the villagers repeat the same phrases because they’re mechanics! They present you with puzzles because they’re testing your worthiness of finding the Golden Apple! It’s these things that don’t come together until you get to the end of the story.

The mechanics are really simple, you just solve puzzles. Some puzzles give bonuses, like a painting you put together to get a bonus and things like that. And if you get through the painting then you get a secret category of harder puzzles! It works so well as a mobile game because I can pick it up and put it down and not worry too much about losing lives or something. I was able to get through all of the puzzles, except for the very last one ugh, on my own. So the puzzles really run the gamut, most are easy enough for children but adults will still have fun with it.

The most frustrating part, to me, is that the game doesn’t come with great ways to replay it. You have to set up a whole new save slot, even if you just want to go through the story again. But such is life.

I’m excited to replay the next one! It’s such a fun series.

Wednesday, May 29, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Long Weekend

 I really needed a bit of a break, and this past long weekend was certainly a working weekend for me, but it was nice to take things a little bit slower. I'm just hoping that later in the summer I can take more of a break. But still nice to take a few days to do the minimum work required to shut off my anxiety and just enjoy some nice weather!

Sunday, May 26, 2024

Police Raid

 Well, earlier this week the encampment at my university was raided by police. It was extremely violent, people were pepper sprayed and multiple students were sent to the emergency room, and multiple students and community members were arrested. And it was really sad, a place that was our home and so community oriented was destroyed.

The raid was early Tuesday morning around 5:30 am and in the middle of a Christian sunrise service. (People were literally sitting around singing Kumbaya until the police showed up.) And it was at a time where people thought they were in the clear for the night, which is annoying. The cops gave a 10 minute dispersal order, but they started spraying around minute 6. From there, they forced the protesters off of the camp, again spraying even while people were backing up and complying, and they clearly coordinated with the school to lock the doors to all of the buildings in the area.

Eventually the protesters made it to the street. The police were not letting aid through, there was a huge perimeter around the area and they were running out of water to wash out their eyes and things like that. Once they came to stop at a park, some of us were able to get through with more water. About then we found out that the arrested people were at the county jail, so a lot of us headed that way to start a rally. We managed to get them out that afternoon, and it's good we did, because the arrested individuals were not given medical attention at all.

It was gross, and it really exposes the brutality of the police. Not to mention that afterwards the president of the university sent out an email that was full of lies and the Regents have been gloating on Twitter. (They have both been criticized pretty heavily which is good to see.) But it is so sad and disappointing, even though I knew it was going to end this way.

Wednesday, May 22, 2024

This Is Beautiful: Gaza Funds

 Hey if you want to help out families in Gaza, bookmark this site: https://gazafunds.com/

It's a site that displays a random gofundme from a family in Gaza looking for support. It's just one gofundme, and it's random, so you don't have to try and select one strategically or whatever. Excellent site, I use it all the time, and it's so important to be helping people right now!